Life...

I remember when I was 18 and just married. I was the cute little wife that made a lunch for her hubby and kissed him off to work. I cleaned my little apartment and read books. I don't really remember what else I did. Then 2 months went by and I was feeling sort of sick. After peeing on a stick the night of hub's brother's open house, our future was inevitable. We were going to be parents not even a year after being married! We were so shocked, we both sat on our hand-me-down couch in our teeny apartment and stared at the wall. After that I was the cute growing 19 yr old pregnant wife. I would sometimes make a lunch and kiss my hubby off to work. I spent many precious moments hanging out in the bathroom vomiting. I think I watched Regis and Kelly so much that I thought I was truly friends with them! Then I started working at an elementary school as a teacher's aide while my belly grew and grew. After my darling daughter decided to be just about 2 weeks overdue, I had a little baby. My life changed in ways I never knew it could. That little girl is now 8 years old and she has a little sister 28 months younger than her. Those two children are my best friends, besides the hubs. I could not imagine my life without those girls! They are what make my life complete. After raising them to be old enough to go to school they are now on their own for 6 hours of the day. That terrifies me! My babies are away from me for most of the day.

Now I am the cute, hopefully shrinking belly, wife. I make lunches for my kids, and kiss them off to school. I ask hubs what he is doing for lunch, make sure he eats something. Then I kiss him off to work on the days he doesn't leave before I wake up. I stay home and I exercise, read, cook, clean, do mountains of laundry, watch a little too many GG that I really truly think I am friends with them.

My life is good.

Need a little Faith…

For our Primary Activity last month we had the kids plant some Rye grass in little pots. My friend who is the 1^st counselor had done a test run to see if the grass would grow. She did this over a month before our activity. Well nothing happened. I think she actually planted the seeds 3 times. When we did it at the activity we had no idea if the seeds would actually grow. My girls had faith that theirs would grow. The Primary president's husband has said he asked all the kids if anyone had grass growing. No one did, but WE DO! One is doing better than the other, but they are growing a ton! They love their grass!

A couple weeks ago hubs had to go out of town for work for most of the week. I hate it when he's gone, and I don't think I can function, let alone sleep. But this time I had faith that I would be fine and guess what I was! Well sort of. I ended up getting sick, BUT it was ok because the kids were so great at taking care of themselves and hubs was actually able to some home 6 hours earlier than he was originally scheduled.

Last week I decided that I need to quit my job. Now this was not an easy decision. I liked working, but I couldn't handle the bad way that I was treated by some of the other employees. (FYI: hubs works there and no it was not him who was treating me bad!) After I put in my notice I got a little freaked out when I thought about being home by myself while the kids are at school. After all, that was the WHOLE reason I got that job, so I wouldn't be alone! After the initial shock faded I decided that I would have faith that it will all work out and miraculously my fear subsided and was replaced by a peaceful feeling! I am actually now looking forward to being home and discovering myself and drenching myself in projects and being able to have more time to be with my family.

Today I realized that having faith is actually not easy. In the scriptures it reads: "And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you."- Matt. 17: 20

That last phrase that I put in bold is so profound to me! Imagine that if you just have enough faith that NOTHING shall be impossible to you! Grass will grow. Being home by yourself won't be horrible. Fear will disappear. You can move a mountain!

I think we all just need a little faith…

Cute Posies...

One of my great friends is having a cool givaway on her site. Here is a picture of my little one wearing some of her creations:


And hubby too:


(the girls think it's HilAriouS when they do his hair and dress him up! I do too! They did this when he was on the computer.)

(he's going to KILL me!) Oh well!)

My March Madness…

 

It's that time of year again. This is the time of year I am constantly mad at my husband. Why, you ask? It's because of something that can be summed up into one word:

 

Basketball

 

For those of you lucky enough to not know what I mean. I will be a little more specific. NCAA College basketball tournament time is here, and that my friends, means HOURS of basketball on TV a day for about 3 weeks. It all starts when you have the teams announced, that was on Sunday. After that you have to carefully fill out your bracket to see if you can beat your friends and coworkers at picking the winners. Today the first round games started. I am so lucky to have a husband who left me to go and actually be at some of these games!

Now don't get me wrong, I want my husband to be able to go do "man" things. Doing "man" things is good for him. But this is the time of year that the "man" things overtake him into another realm. Granted it's only once a year. But frankly after dealing with it for 9 years it just gets worse to me! I keep on thinking I will get used to it, but I don't! There is never a time where I can for a 3 week period just "check out" from reality. There is no possible way! I was sick last week and he was actually out of town for most of last week and I had to stay on top of things, I didn't do it very well but I did alright. I even had a good reason to check out, but I couldn't! Even when he got home and could take care of things, I was there in the background reminding about things i.e. "feed the girls", "shower night", "change the laundry" etc. I couldn't/didn't check out.

Here we are the beginning of the Madness. The time of year the hubs checks out for basketball. He is mad for the games, I am mad at him for being mad for the games. It's a vicious cycle. Who will be the victor at the end? Only the bracket can tell. Whose cuisine will reign supreme? Probably not mine, for I am not slaving at the stove while he is non-existent in this house. (I actually just felt like writing that phrase from Iron Chef, I'm weird, I know.)

 

Bachelor Jason…

ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?

WHAT are you THINKING? You can just CHANGE your mind? Why on EARTH would you dump your FIANCE on national television? BTW-If I hear you say "those eyes" (Molly's) one more time I swear I will break something!

 

Molly…

Why on EARTH would you take him back? If he can do that to Melissa, he sure as HECK can do that to YOU! How can you just decide after 5 minutes of his jabbering, that he is worthy of you. THEN you actually MADE-OUT with him!

 

Melissa…

I feel so bad for you. No one should have to go through that. I can see that you were invested in the relationship, but you unfortunately got a "bad egg". You, sista, got the short end of the stick. I really hope you find someone that SCHOOLS that retard Jason!

 

(Oh and I totally am breaking up with you now!)

Love to listen to.....

(2 posts in one day? Don't get too used to it!)

While I wrote my last post I was listening to this (still am):

It is SO GOOD! I highly suggest buying it. I did on iTunes.
Oh and love the Lost promo they did! I have that video on my iPod right now. LOVE it!

Valentines Day?

The title of this blog says that this is a blog of thoughts.

Therefore you are forewarned before you even read the posts I do.

I do not believe in Valentines Day.

It was created by Hallmark, or the equivalent of it, way back when this day started to exist.

On Saturday I did not expect anything out of the ordinary from my DH.

He DEFINITELY didn't expect anything from me!

Having said that, there is a VERY good reason for this.

Our anniversary is 12 days after V-Day.

I would MUCH rather he pamper me with LOTS of LOVE on THAT day.

That is ONE day that REALLY does mean something to me.

The day I married the man of my dreams.

My best friend, my confidant, my supporter, my lover.

In 10 days will be 9 years of us being bound together forever.

Is 9 years a long time?

Doesn't seem like it to me.

Wow, I am in LOVE!