Things that make me happy...

Today is Memorial Day. I am going to put off the downer thoughts and focus on today's happy things. To start off our ward had a breakfast this morning. I got to make cinnamon rolls for it. I made the dough last night and then got up early to roll it out and bake the yummy morsels! (For the recipe I used head on over to the awesome Pioneer Woman!) I tweaked the recipe and used cream cheese frosting on mine.

Wow these babies were TASTY! And I still have half the dough in my fridge just WAITING to be make into scrumptious little bad boys.

While baking I got to be in my favorite room in my house. While there I rekindled my relationship with a long lost friend...

Oh rolling pin. You probably thought I had forgotten about you after all these years!

After being home for a little bit is was great to walk down the hall and spot this...

The kiddos home and playing games with each other. Their hair has seen better days (i.e. yesterday, now why did I not take pictures?), but that's ok they are playing well and we all were up early.

My newly made darling friend, worked the night shift and her hubby was sick. In comes me to SAVE THE DAY and watch her baby! True story is I actually swiped the baby out of her mom's arms and told her I would bring her home in a few hours. The girls LOVE to play with her and I do to for that matter. We had a good time, and it all pays off when you see this...

Zonked out from all the fun!

Last night I made some great progress on my Photoshop abilities! I was so HAPPY to actually figure something out! Thanks to Ace for teaching me some cool tricks! Here is fruit of my hard work...

I call it "First Dance." That is sort of obvious when it was their first dance after being married. My little brother... LOFF HIM!

Now I have to think thoughts about how I LOVE fitting into my pants, so I won't go eat all the rest of the cinnamon rolls.

Downer thoughts...

Ever have those times when everything you think of is just a downer? Well I am thinking I am starting to think that way and I want to stop it. For example...

My bedroom is so sad to look at. I still have my dresser from when I was a baby. Same with hubs. My bed is just on the frame. My quilts are 9+ years old. I REALLY need to organized things in there, but I REALLY don't want to!

My girl's room needs help. I want to make them new quilts, but I am not creative enough to think about what to do. I want to paint it, but I have to make the quilts first so I know what colors. Their armoire(sp?) doesn't fit all their clothes. They really need something else.

I am going to the gym everyday. But at the end of the day I am SO POOPED! I can't even enjoy my shows or my husband (in that order). Maybe I shouldn't go to the gym. If I don't go to the gym I will get fat and then I will be tired because I am not exercising.

I hate the summer in Vegas. It has already hit over 100* and it's just the beginning. I really don't like being hot.

Ok like I said I really need to stop thinking this way. I think the reason I wrote this is to get it out of my system. Now I will try hard to think positive thoughts and get the downer thoughts away.

(I just realized that I said I wouldn't complain on here anymore. Darn it!)

New toy...

I realized that the last couple posts were a little on the complaining side. I wasn't really complaining, just letting you all know my thoughts. Like I have reminded before about the title of my blog. My little journal for you all to read. I love to share my thoughts with my family and friends. I will try to be more positive, for myself and my diligent readers. (all 10 of you!)

Hubs and I made a purchase of a new toy for ourselves. I have been lucky enough to play with it a little. Although I have NO idea how to really play with it.

We have upgraded our old Canon PowerShot S230 to a Canon Digital Rebel XSi. In order to even turn it on I needed an additional purchase.


I feel like a complete DUMMY trying to use this thing! I am getting better. The great thing about this camera is that on full auto it will take amazing pictures. Since I am not working anymore I needed something to spark my interest and keep me entertained. I am sure this camera will take oodles of time to figure out, therefore providing me the means to keep my mind off of being lonely.

I also found a GREAT deal on Photoshop on Ebay this week. I await the arrival of the other piece to the many puzzles I will be playing with! While these things are puzzling to me, I am truly excited to expound my knowledge on something new!


If anyone has great knowledge of any of these PLEASE share with me! I am going to look for some classes to take, oh and keep on reading my awesome book.

I'm sick...

and tired. Oh and I'm also sick of being sick and tired. I took myself to the ER yesterday morning at 2:30. My throat hurt. Is that a good reason to go the the ER? Well it was good enough for me because it had progressively gotten worse. I couldn't sleep or hardly swallow my own saliva! You should hear the super sexy voice I have! The dr. gave me steroids to make the swelling go down, are they the same kind that give you big muscles? I was also given some antibiotics and pain medication. Then after 3 1/2 hours sent on my merry way home to, hopefully, get some MUCH needed sleep. Sleep came and then went. Not enough. I'm feeling a little better today. I have faith in my little Z-pack(antibiotics). I haven't even used the major pain drugs they prescribed me. I'm tough like that. I think I may muster up some strength, now I'm sure those weren't muscle building steroids, to go take a much needed shower. I should probably eat, it's now 11:00 am. I had 3 bowls of Life cereal yesterday. I may have 3 more today. It's the only thing that sounds good. I like the way it feels on my ailing throat.

Getting old...

When I got married all I wanted was to be older. EVERYONE told me I was "just so young." Which I really was, so I guess they were just telling me the truth. I shouldn't complain. Anyway, back then and even now I am not complaining about getting older. I still feel like I did when I was 20, even though I am now closer to 30, it's really no biggie. It just seems like I should enjoy the ride since it's gonna happen whether I like it or not. Well lately I have been noticing true signs of change in my body. It's really sort of starting to freak me out. Most of the things are so WEIRD I'm wondering if it's just me? Since I am not afraid of being embarrassed I'm going to list some of the things I am noticing:

~ZITS! What is up with the zits man! I am getting them in places I have never had them in my LIFE. i.e. back, neck, face, and even one in my armpit the other day! Oh and I have one growing inside my nose right now! WHY OH WHY??

~ Gray HAIR!! So far the gray hair tally is 6. They are no longer in my head, thank you. Although the time will come I probably shouldn't pull them out anymore!

~ Speaking of hair, I am getting little tiny hairs all over my NOSE! I seriously have to pluck the hairs that are all over the OUTSIDE of my nose!

~ Gas. Yep I have been having even MORE issues with my belching. Although I think this one really could be just me. But I had to list it just in case!

~ Eye bags. Even when I get a good nights sleep it seems like there is still a little shadow under my eyes.

~ Teeth. I just realized that a lot of old people have dentures! I have this one tooth that seems to be a little loose. But it could just be my imagination.

Even though I feel fine and young, all these things are starting to make me think otherwise. Please tell me if any of these things are way abnormal so I know to go see a doctor!

Life...

I remember when I was 18 and just married. I was the cute little wife that made a lunch for her hubby and kissed him off to work. I cleaned my little apartment and read books. I don't really remember what else I did. Then 2 months went by and I was feeling sort of sick. After peeing on a stick the night of hub's brother's open house, our future was inevitable. We were going to be parents not even a year after being married! We were so shocked, we both sat on our hand-me-down couch in our teeny apartment and stared at the wall. After that I was the cute growing 19 yr old pregnant wife. I would sometimes make a lunch and kiss my hubby off to work. I spent many precious moments hanging out in the bathroom vomiting. I think I watched Regis and Kelly so much that I thought I was truly friends with them! Then I started working at an elementary school as a teacher's aide while my belly grew and grew. After my darling daughter decided to be just about 2 weeks overdue, I had a little baby. My life changed in ways I never knew it could. That little girl is now 8 years old and she has a little sister 28 months younger than her. Those two children are my best friends, besides the hubs. I could not imagine my life without those girls! They are what make my life complete. After raising them to be old enough to go to school they are now on their own for 6 hours of the day. That terrifies me! My babies are away from me for most of the day.

Now I am the cute, hopefully shrinking belly, wife. I make lunches for my kids, and kiss them off to school. I ask hubs what he is doing for lunch, make sure he eats something. Then I kiss him off to work on the days he doesn't leave before I wake up. I stay home and I exercise, read, cook, clean, do mountains of laundry, watch a little too many GG that I really truly think I am friends with them.

My life is good.

Need a little Faith…

For our Primary Activity last month we had the kids plant some Rye grass in little pots. My friend who is the 1^st counselor had done a test run to see if the grass would grow. She did this over a month before our activity. Well nothing happened. I think she actually planted the seeds 3 times. When we did it at the activity we had no idea if the seeds would actually grow. My girls had faith that theirs would grow. The Primary president's husband has said he asked all the kids if anyone had grass growing. No one did, but WE DO! One is doing better than the other, but they are growing a ton! They love their grass!

A couple weeks ago hubs had to go out of town for work for most of the week. I hate it when he's gone, and I don't think I can function, let alone sleep. But this time I had faith that I would be fine and guess what I was! Well sort of. I ended up getting sick, BUT it was ok because the kids were so great at taking care of themselves and hubs was actually able to some home 6 hours earlier than he was originally scheduled.

Last week I decided that I need to quit my job. Now this was not an easy decision. I liked working, but I couldn't handle the bad way that I was treated by some of the other employees. (FYI: hubs works there and no it was not him who was treating me bad!) After I put in my notice I got a little freaked out when I thought about being home by myself while the kids are at school. After all, that was the WHOLE reason I got that job, so I wouldn't be alone! After the initial shock faded I decided that I would have faith that it will all work out and miraculously my fear subsided and was replaced by a peaceful feeling! I am actually now looking forward to being home and discovering myself and drenching myself in projects and being able to have more time to be with my family.

Today I realized that having faith is actually not easy. In the scriptures it reads: "And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you."- Matt. 17: 20

That last phrase that I put in bold is so profound to me! Imagine that if you just have enough faith that NOTHING shall be impossible to you! Grass will grow. Being home by yourself won't be horrible. Fear will disappear. You can move a mountain!

I think we all just need a little faith…